I Was So Close!

I was so close to shutting down my internet life completely this week.  I know a few people who would be happy to hear that news!  Sorry, it’s not going to happen.  Nothing bad has happened or anything.  I was just so frustrated with trying to juggle things going on in our lives.  First and foremost, no doubt or question about it are my duties as a servant of God.  My husband, daughters and grandchildren come next.  I was thinking that I’m so very grateful that I don’t have an internet life that’s crippling if I’m not online or not participating with so many things that I cannot keep up with them.  Wouldn’t that be a terrible way to live?  I think so and I feel so strongly that it would be taking away from a commitment to Christ.  If my heart is on the internet and all the ritual routines with it, then what’s left for God?

I’ve been involved with web designing and internet for over 14 years, and I’m so thankful that God gave me the conscience that He did by not allowing me to be so comfortable with it all that I cannot have a life around it.  My family and I went out of town this past weekend for me to do a networking job for some friends and also to help them around the yard and the house with much needed repairs that had been put off far too long.   I can honestly say that I never missed being online even though I was running up and down stairs between computers to get them setup and online.  I didn’t check my email, I didn’t check my blog or my website from last Friday morning until late Monday night when we got home.  It was soooooooo nice to know that I have my priorities in order and am giving to God the way I should be.

If I ever did give it all up, would it affect me and how would it affect me?  Well, yes, it would affect me, I have to admit to that because I cannot describe my love for designing and building websites for others.  I would miss doing that terribly.  I would miss the people I have become friends with, but since I have most of their phone numbers and addresses then I wouldn’t lose touch with them.  I would miss being able to surprise people on their birthdays and not having a way to share a smile online with them.  I would miss the time I have to myself during the night, like right now, I hear my husband breathing in his slumber and know that my daughter is fast asleep and maybe even sharing her space with a kitten or two.  I would also miss all the late night devotions that I’ve done for weekly Blogger Friend School assignments and I would most definitely miss the Blogger Friend School because I do love it more than anyone knows.  Other than those things, I don’t think that I would be missing out on having an internet life.

I still have plans to post pictures of my daughters and husbands birthdays…I just haven’t done it yet.  Staying away and praying!