Doing Hard Things While Finding Happyness!

When God Closes a Door…

I feel lately like I’ve been doing many hard things.  A lot of emotional stuff going on in my life has really brought on some sleepless nights and worrisome days.  At the same time a lot of great and exciting things have been going on too.  I’ve prayed for a long time for God to give me some direction in my life, a sign or symbol…I know those things won’t physically happen but through a chain of events he’s shown people to me and led me to a whole new season in my life.  Every thing, every thought within me is screaming ARISE and so, I AM!!

At the same time all the happy things are happening in my life there are also sad things tearing me apart inside.  My heart aches tremendously for special and wonderful people in my life.  One is going through a horrible time, a separation and eventually a divorce.  She’s letting go of not only her lifelong marriage but her passion in homeschooling.  She’s worked diligently for many years and devoted her life and her family’s lives to incorporating a homeschool group so that families like mine and all the ones I know would have a place of peace and contentment, a place where no one questions if you’re crazy for home education.  I trust her decisions and every thing she’s built upon for the last 11 or more years.  I respect her immensely.  My heart aches for her and I wish I could just take her pain so she and her family would not have to go through this time.  I know God’s will is to be done in her life though and her love of our Lord will carry her through.

My dearest friend Carol is still very sick and having problems with her heart again.  It’s really burdened me lately, to the point of having to accept that she will be gone from this earth someday.    I’ve never known the friendship of a woman, other than that which grew within me for my mother.  Carol is every woman to me…she’s been the role model of a mother, an older sister, a mentor, but  mostly she’s been a friend.  If walls could talk…the stories we could tell!  Carol came into my life at a time when I was alone and raising a very sick little daughter.  Our friendship was immediate and so necessary in both our lives.  We’ve spent many years laughing heartily and crying intensely together when it was needed.  Nine years have come and gone and Carol has seen me in the best and the worst of times.  It seems sometimes that we only met yesterday.  If you can find it in your heart I would ask your prayers for my wonderful friend.  Here’s a picture of us together last year:

Another hard thing I’ve had to do lately is to post the finale of Blogger Friend School on that website.  It was something that one day I knew would have to happen but not something I am very happy about.  The season for this meme ran for over 3 years and the devil fought us all the way through.  It never ceases to amaze me what some people will do to gain numbers for the ‘bragging rights’ on their own blog(s).  It’s a cruel thing to take something that someone loves and cherishes and destroys it for their own selfish reasons.  Even so, I have to be loving and forgiving in the name of the Lord.  I can’t help but wonder, do you think people will really answer for all their wrongdoings when their time on earth has ended?  I know the Bible says they will, so for now I will continue to pray for them!

I guess that’s enough about my ‘hard things’ because out of all that, I have finally found direction for my life and happyness…you wonder why I spell that wrong?  Watch the movie, Pursuit of Happyness with Will Smith~!  Beware of some unpleasant language.  God has blessed me with meeting some wonderful people this week and so with that….

He Opens a Window!